"how can I wish to meet Him when I have disobeyed Him?''

Abu Sulayman al Darani [d.205/830] – a great devout/ascetic (zahid) and early salaf – once asked Umm Harun (an extremely pious woman) whether she liked death:
Abu Sulayman :Do you love death?
Umm Harun replied : I do not.
Abu Sulayman asked : Why? Umm Harun anwsered : Were I to disobey a human being, I would not wish to meet him; so how can I wish to meet Him(Allaah) when I have disobeyed Him?
Kitab Dhikr al-Mawt wa-ma Ba`dahu, p.12.